Feeling like a failure

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J for Jamie Blog | Santa Barbara I've always believed that bloggers shouldn't apologize for being away for long periods of time - life happens and sometimes blogging just has to take a backseat. Well, I have seriously gone hiatus and I've felt terrible about it. Not because I haven't been posting but more because I haven't wanted to post for this long. I have folder after folder on my computer of things I planned to blog about and when I'd sit down to start the posting process, I just couldn't muster up the energy. And to be totally honest, it's made me feel like a failure. Like I've let someone down, mostly myself.

The past couple months, I got completely bogged down with work, clocking 19 hour days and not even seeing Chris or Charlie (awake) for days at a time. Work demanded all 100% of me and I made a conscious decision to give in. But that meant sacrifices - I had to cancel a Blog Party, I didn't have time to answer personal emails or even texts for that matter and I completely lost touch. Even the thought of sitting back down at a computer when I got home, made me feel nauseous. That being said, my crazy schedule has calmed down now and I've reevaluated my priorities. Surprisingly, I feel rejuvenated. It's a difficult decision to choose between work and your passion but sometimes you have to choose the one that pays the bills and I think that's okay in the end (as long as it's not all the time).

Regardless, I'm back to feeling like blogging will be a wonderful creative outlet and not a burden. I have so many adventures over the summer that I want to share and many more to come. Thank you for sticking with me!